it is the start of a new week. 2 more weeks of training. tommorrow we have a test so i am going to have to do some studying (yucko!!). i will confess i am liking all the new (and old) stuff i am learning. i was hesitant at first but not i am glad that they decided to put us all through this intense training. GOOD TIMES!! when i am done with this i need to really look into some more classes (i often forget how much i love learning!!)

sunday...it was a good day and i was able to "OWN" it. We as a family went to church together and i feel so blessed that we went. I was so amazed as i sat there listening to my pastor. he started to speak about change in 2008!!! Wow!! i could not believe it... the one word that i wanted to focus on this year and he was speaking about it in the spiritual realm! INCREDIBLE. I really feel this is the LORD speaking to me and confirming that i need to change this year. i do believe the change is within me and i am the only one who can do this. if i do not change than the change will not occur, it will not happen. It is up to me and only me!!

today was a productive day. it started out kind of slow but i was able to get lots of stuff done on my to do list for this weekend. i went shopping (Christmas money) and it was fun...no guilt just plain old spending!!! TEEEHEHEHEHE! i was able to get some fun jewelry (i needed some new necklaces with the tops I bought last month), some books that look like they will be good to read (who does not love to read about the people running for President???), some magazines, scrap booking stuff and the 2008 scrapbook calender (yipee!!!) and last but not least...a cool clear and logo purse from Macy's (it was on sale so i don't feel too guilty about the purchase...teeehehehe) AND to top it off i still have some money left over!!! Good Times!!! i was also able to get my study notes transferred to index cards, pick up Gigi's Screwtape letters book, study and work on my finances and...i am currently watching my Borg play (it is a tie right now and i am doing everything i can to keep calm!!!) and entering this into my blog!!!! You talk about a productive day. I OWNED TODAY!!!!
i am hoping to get some scrapbooking done...i checked some of the challenges and they look so fun!!! here's hoping...

this weekend i need to get somethings done...

* sit down and work on my financial diet plans.
* do some shopping (Christmas money...teehehehehe)
* watch the Borg win!!!!!
* work on my scrapbooking area (yucko!!!)
* study
* catch up on some shows (our DVR is at 90%!!)


if i can get this list done i will feel like i "owned" this weekend.

speaking of "owned"...i do feel like i owned this week at work. I was able to go through my training with a positive attitude (for the most part...sitting around doing nothing still gets to me but i have learned to get beyond the frustration) and i really do believe i am learning some new things and also things that will help me become a better and stronger leader. i am liking that!!!!!

wow! I had to get up early this morning (on my day off!!) to go into work and take some test (knowledge about our trouble shooting and equipment skills). Wow! What a way to start the new year...feeling stupid! Yes, I said it! For a few minutes, at the beginning of the 1st test, I felt stupid! Man so I hate that feeling. And to be honest I have not felt like that in years and years! I could feel myself becoming insecure and ugly! Well, I had to stop it and stop it quick! I stopped for a minute and went over the test and then I assessed the test and myself. I reminded myself that I have never been "officially" trained on any of this. I went onto my current job and my training was "on the job". I then started to breathe and think..should I mark something down or be honest and not answer if I do not know the answer. Well, since this was an assessment test (to see what I knew) I decided to be honest and not answer if I did not know (why guess and if I get it right I would not even know it!!! what good would that do me in needing to learn what I don't know). So, I answered what I knew (not much) and did not answer what I did not know (lots). Looking back I am glad I did it the way I did. I feel good about being honest about my knowledge in these areas. I also feel excited because we will be training in these areas and when the training is done I will be able to answer those questions I was unable to this morning!! Wahoo!!! I love learning and knowledge (and this is one the areas of change I want in 2008). I also feel this helped me to NOT feel stupid. I was able to assess the situation, throw away my stress and react only after I thought about it!!! I actually feel powerful because of this! Not a bad way to start my first "work" day of 2008!!

I have the morning off so I need to run some errands (including getting my cousin something for her birthday and paying some bills off!!). I am taking the girls with me so they can visit Grandma G and Auntie Virgie. OK...that is the plan...now I just need to OWN THIS DAY and so it!!!! teeehehehehe