I am so trying to figure out how we are going to do this holiday. We usually have a huge Christmas (3+ trees, gifts galore, baking, visiting different holiday spots and more...). I spoke with my family and I am so not in the mood this year. My hunny bunny was trying to delve in and see what is was all about and the "deep" reasons for my feelings and I became frustrated and yelled out "My Mother died!!". There was silence and then I knew he "got" it... and I "got" it...it really seemed to make sense and there was silence. As we were silent I felt this relief...this pressure was released and it felt good. It felt good to say...MY MOTHER DIED!!! There does not have to be anything deep or profound...there only has to be that for my. I don't have to apologize, I don't have to try to make sense of these feelings, I don't have to do anything but know...know that this is hard and I am not sure how to handle this holiday thing this year. I told the girls about not having a holiday this year and they were silent. I can understand that. After speaking to hunny bunny and getting somethings out there I think we will find a happy medium. A place where we can all be content (happy is to strong of a word right now...at least for me...). I am not sure what type of holiday we will have but at least we are talking about it and I am confident we all reach an agreement...who would have every thought this would be a bridge we would have to cross at this point in our lives...*sigh*

Happy Thanksgiving. I hope everyone had a wonderful day and did not forget to stop and be thankful for all the blessings in their lives. My hunny bunny and the girls felt it would be best if I did not cook so we went to a restaurant with my dad and in-laws. I am so thankful for such a thoughtful family and even though I did not enjoy the meal, I did enjoy being with my family. Hunny Bunny is so wonderful and thoughtful and I am soooo thankful for him! He completes me. In the end I was glad I did not cook, I was able to enjoy my family and think of my Mom and remember her and yes...miss her. This was the first Thanksgiving without her and I truley missed her so much! I am so thankful for knowing her and the many special memories I have of her.





We went to see the Movie "The Blind Side" this afternoon (hunny bunny, the girls and myself). It was such a great family movie! I loved it. I loved how a family took in a stranger and loved him as one their own and how "family" counts!!! I also loved how love can do so much when applied to people and in people! The acting was good and I loved the "little brother"...he was adorable! If you get a chance please see it!!! It is a great movie!!!!

i have been thinking about life changes lately for myself...no not those changes that we have no control over...i have had my share of those this year and an still dealing with those. No, I am speaking about those things i can control...and as i have been thinking about that i am discovering some things about myself...interesting things, things that have stopped me in my tracks, things that i want to walk away from but feel i need to look at. i must confess, this life changing thing has taken me to a new place. i know i am here for a reason but i am not sure what to do. i know i need to make some changes and i know in the end it will be for the good but boy, oh boy...i am really just starting to realize...I DO NOT LIKE CHANGE!!!! ok...why would that be a shock...i am a traditional person who will have the same breakfast every morning and do the same thing every night if i allowed myself to. Yes, that same person is shocked at how much i do not like change...but more so i do not think i like the fact that i could be a change agent...me!!! I believe I am at that place in life when I need to become my own CHANGE AGENT. I need to make changes. I need to take those steps to change things in my life that are not healthy for me. I need to do this...not my hunny bunny, my girls or even God...ME...MYSELF...I!!! And guess what...it scares me crazy to see that let alone believe it. I know what I need to do but I don't want to be the one to do it...interesting!!! I need to "marinate" on this and see what becomes of it...

1. What is your favorite written work of horror fiction?
I do not like horror....

2. What is your favorite work of science fiction/fantasy?
Aliens....it scared me sooo much when i was a teenager!!!
Matrix (all of them)

3. Who is your favorite monster?
Does Elmo count???

4. What is your favorite Horror movie?
don't do horror

5. What horror movie gives you the most chills?
I hated then all (my dad made me see them when I was young)...Amityville Horror was horrible!!!

6. What character from any horror film would you most like to play?
No thank you!!!

7. Freddy or Jason?
UUUGGGHHHHH!!!! to both

8. What is your favorite Halloween treat?
anything with chocolate!!!

9. Ghosts or goblins?
Ghosts.

10. Friendly-faced jack-o'-lantern or scary one?
Friendly (of course)

11. What is your scariest encounter with the paranormal?
does seeing myself at 3am in the mirror count?

12. Do you believe in ghosts? Why or why not?
no...there are only one of two places we go after death and earth is not one of them

13. Would you rather be a zombie, alien, or psycho?
Alien (the thought of flesh grosses me out!!)

14. Favorite Halloween costume?
A bee or pumpkin...

15. Best thing about Halloween?
the costumes and decorations

16. Person in your family who most likes Halloween (not counting yourself)?
It use to be my Mom...now it is me!

17. Are you superstitious?
hmmmmmmm.....

18. Share an unusual Halloween story.
don't have one...sorry

19. What did you do for Halloween as a kid?
dress up and go out trick or treating with my cousins

20. What's the best Halloween party that you've attended?
when i was a teenager we had one with our youth group...it was fun (me, angie and bobby were stopped by the police and he was a clown and i was a pregnant woman with Noxema on my face...teeehehehehe)!!!

Sunday Stealing: The Starrlight Meme

1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
a piece of apple pie from KFC

2. Where was your profile picture taken?
bathroom

3. Can you play Guitar Hero?
if i try hard enough and practice (we do own it)

4. Name someone who made you laugh today. What was it about?
my baby girl. she said "listen here" while we were all in the car and we thought about "Bacon is good for me!!"

5. How late did you stay up last night and why?
12:30 am...watching QVC and on Facebook (weekend!!)

6. If you could move somewhere else where would you and why?
a small town...more family/community feeling

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
yes...4th of July

8. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Lechelle...a few blocks

9. Do you believe ex's can be friends? With benefits?
yes...no

10. Do you like Dr. Pepper?
yes

11. When was the last time you cried really hard? Really hard as opposed to just sniveling?
this summer...when we buried my mother

12. Who took your profile picture?
me!!!

13. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
the girls and Reggie

14. Was yesterday better than today? Why?
no...we went to church today and had family time

15. Can you live a day without TV?
yes, as long as I have a DVR waiting for me the next day

16. Are you upset about anything now?
yes

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
ALWAYS!!!

18. Are you a bad influence?
yes

19. Night out or night in?
Night out!!!

20. What items could you not go without during the day?
computer, a coke, DVR

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
my dad

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
don't text...don't have a cell phone (by choice)

23. How do you feel about your life right now?
like i am caged in a box and can't get out...

24. Do you hate anyone?
no

25. If we were to look in your Facebook inbox, what would we find?
lots of unread messages

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
yes

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
yes

28. What song is stuck in your head?
Apple bottom jeans...

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2 a.m., whom do you want it to be?
if he is not beside me...my husband

30. Do you (or did you) want to have grandkids before you’re 50?
yes

31. Tell us your Saturday night.
dinner out with family, shopping, later catching up on some shows (DVR)

32. Do you think too much or too little?
too much

33. Do you smile a lot?
more than i did last year...a work still in progress...

Today was an interesting day...for some reason it was a day to remember my Mom. I seemed to see her in so many things in my life today and the result was a point where I was melancholy and it was hard to go on. Who knows maybe I need more days like this...i sometimes feel like I do not grieve. I do not cry. I do not remember. I just...exist. When it comes to my Mom I exist. Is this natural? Normal? Abnormal? Wrong? Right? I don't know. I have never done this before. I did not read a manual. And let me tell you for someone who strives to do everything perfect and must have order this is horrible!!! I feel like i should make a list and when i have done everything on it and mark it off i will be done with this grieving this. Is that not sick? Am i not sick to think this? I think so and I hate it. I hate not knowing how to process my mothers loss. I hate not knowing if i should scream. Cry. Hate. Go into a depression. Yell. I hate not know what to do. I want to grieve and I do not know how!!! Maybe i really don't want to? Maybe I am afraid of the openness I will have to have. The vulnerability. I remember when she left us I walked out of the room and into the bathroom down the hall. I remember standing in the dark and then bending over and screaming into my hands. A scream no one could hear. I remember standing there and feeling so many things and just as fast as they came I pushed them down. I knew there was family waiting and I knew i was needed. I remember taking a deep breath and walking out of the bathroom and back into her room. I remember. I have not gone back to that moment, those feelings, that pain. Instead I went through the motions to bury her and assist my family. Time is going by and I am moving with it...I am not grieving...I am existing when it comes to her. Time will tell how this pans out....they say time heals...i am hoping that is the case...

wow...where does the time go??? I am sooo horrible for neglecting my blog...i could give so many reasons why and they are all legitimate. I miss blogging and I have been thinking about it but I am not ready...I feel guilty...and I am not sure why??? This is something I need to look at and "marinate". Just know I am here but in thought only....

Sunday afternoon...i have a few minutes so i thought i would sit down and write...maybe an update...maybe not. I am amazed at how quickly time has passed since June 11, 2009. It is crazy...life continues to go on...

* I returned back to work....code red!!! *grin*
* I am trying to get my mothers home cleaned out and failing in every area (it is sooooo hard to go through her things...so hard).
* a pug puppy was left in our backyard and we had no idea why!!!
* I helped someone out and they have still not paid back the $500.00 they promised.
* My basement has a minor mishap and flooded
* Mid-years are due and we have a week to complete them!!
* We almost lost my father...he was in ICU for 2 days and a regular room for 2 more days (it was the same hospital my mom has passed away in 4 weeks earlier)
* My Aunt Dorthy passed away 1 week and 1 day after we buried my mother.
* The 4th of July and Fathers Day came and left without my mother.
* People are dieing all over the place...Michael Jackson, Farrah...
* Baby girl is still away from home and I worry that she did not have enough time at home to grieve for her Grandmother (she has never experience death this close to home and she was forced to leave is the day after we buried her Grandmother).
* I am still in denial...

*sigh* As you can see life still goes on and the sun still rises and sets everyday....

It has been a while since I last visited this blog. It is with deep sorrow I must say my Mother has passed away. She is with the Lord and for that I am so grateful however...my heart is sad and my soul is hurt. She went to be with the Lord on June 11nth. We laid her to rest last Wednesday and I truly believe she would have loved her funeral (the doves and my baby girls singing Amazing Grace would have made her so proud!!). It has been exhausting and at this point I am talking a few steps at a time (before this week it was only one step and that was every few hours). My family has been incredible and I love them more this week than 2 weeks ago. They are truly amazing! I am still raw so I believe I will end this with a beautiful piece of writing Boo did for her Grandmother (it was passed out at the funeral and I took this from her facebook entry)...

In Loving Memory

Monday, June 15, 2009 at 11:33pm

On Thursday my grandmother passed away in the hospital just four days after being diagnosed with cancer that had progressed to stage four. She died in her sleep, like she wanted, and didn't suffer, which was a blessing. We were very close and despite a relationship that was sometimes bumpy, I loved her more deeply than I can express. The service is taking place Wednesday morning and I wrote the obituary/biography to be handed out at the chapel. I'm sharing it here for anyone who would like to read it because I want the whole world to know about the woman my grandfather loves with all his heart, who raised my mom to be as strong as she is today, and who loved my sister and I from the day we were born until the day she died.


♥ ♥ ♥


On June 11th, 2009, the world lost a beloved wife, mother, sister, daughter, grandmother, aunt and friend in Linda Griego. She was preceded in death by her father, Guadalupe Ruiz, and four younger siblings: brothers Pete and Ferdie and sisters Mary and Bea. She is survived by her mother Maria Ruiz, her husband of thirty-nine years John B. Griego, her daughter Antoinette Marie (son-in-law Reggie Burgess), her sisters Virginia (brother-in-law Frank Herrera) and Suzie, and her brother Alex (sister-in-law Colleen Ruiz). She will be leaving behind two granddaughters, Bridgette and Genesis Burgess, goddaughter Jessica Agosta, her nieces Angela Montoya, Joline Lopez, Shannon Ortiz, Jamie Muniz and Amy Ruiz, and her nephews Frankie Montoya, Robert Montoya, Lloyd Herrera, and Phillip Herrera.

Linda was born in Denver, Colorado in 1948 on August 24th to Lupe and Maria Ruiz. The eldest of four girls and sister to four brothers, she was always a bright girl and a hard worker. Although she was something of a talker in school as a little girl, she was fairly quiet in general and grew up to be fairly studious. She enjoyed reading, got good grades, and counted Presidents Lincoln and Kennedy as two of her favorite people. She cooked often growing up but it was baking she fell in love with. When her siblings would pick cherries for her, she would use them to bake pies and that was just the beginning; later in life she turned to cake decorating as a hobby and excelled at it, providing delicious and beautiful cakes for numerous occasions (who can forget the delicious four layered chocolate confection whose recipe she guarded with her life?). She was a unique young woman who worked hard for most of her life to help provide for her family, who she loved very much and who remained a part of her life long after she left home. She took care of her sister Mary when she was sick, invited over many family members on holidays like Halloween for several years (and provided plenty of candy goodies for the kids and savory dishes for the grown-ups), and loved to spend time with her mother, who she admired and adored.

Despite an epic and passionate love for Elvis Presley, Linda's true love was her husband John (we know this because she let him take her on a date to look at pigs in a stinky stockyard). They met at a club called The Mambo and, after marrying each other on Christmas Eve in 1970, enjoyed thirty-nine years of marriage. They were an active couple who took many trips together and liked to spend times with their friends and family (she had fond memories of Echo Lake and endless games of Rook). They spent their holidays with Linda's family and, as they got older, devoted much of their time to their granddaughters. John spoiled his "Tootsie" (a nickname he gave her for her love of Tootsie Rolls) during all of their years together. Anyone who spent any time with Linda and John could see how much they adored each other, from their playful banter, to shared stories about mixed up song lyrics ("bowl o' chili", anyone?) and serenades, to their constant physical closeness and all of the time they spent together.

Linda also loved her family, especially her daughter, Antoinette. She worked hard to take care of her daughter for many years and always provided for her; Linda loved to dress Antoinette up and had her in the cutest clothes and hairstyles. She made her daughter's Halloween costumes and took countless pictures of her doing everything from celebrating birthdays to hopping on a bus to camp. For a woman who found as much joy in taking pictures as Linda did, one would be hard-pressed to find a subject she liked capturing more than her family.

Her granddaughters, Bridgette and Genesis, were two even greater joys in her life. She was blessed to be with her daughter when both of her granddaughters were born and spent every year from that day on supporting them in their many creative, athletic, and academic ventures, and loving them unconditionally. She was around from 3 v. 3 soccer games to high school junior varsity matches; from Mestizo dancing to ballet; from kindergarten graduation to high school graduation, and she was proud every step of the way.

Always creative and caring and up-to-date on the latest fashions and trends (she rocked the beehive hair-do, may or may not have had to fight someone off for a Tickle Me Elmo, dressed to the nines even at Disneyland, and welcomed her first granddaughter into the world wearing diamonds and heels), Linda was also resilient and had a bright smile that told anyone looking how much she loved life. She has left behind a hole that cannot be filled in the lives of her loved ones, but she has also left behind memories of a woman who was exciting, extraordinary, and deeply loved. She left this world in exactly the way she wanted: surrounded by those she loved most, peacefully sleeping.

Dearest Tootsie, Mom, Grandma, Sister, Auntie, and Friend, you will be missed and while we struggle to live a life without your physical presence in it, know that we will always love you and take comfort in knowing that you are dancing with the Lord (and this makes us happy because we know how much you loved to dance).

Last night we went to see Boo in her recital (Dance Boulevard). Once again she was AWESOME!!! She had a real busy scheduled this year so to have her keep up with dance on top of that was great!! She was only in 2 dances because of her schedule but she was faithful and it showed! Hunny bunny and I cheered the loudest and longest when her group was up there (there is no way anyone will ever out cheer me when it comes to my babies...teeehehehehe).
As she was dancing I was thinking about how long both of my babies have been dancing! Wow!! They have always loved music so I would say they have been dancing since they could walk!!! Boo started ballet when she was 3 and Gigi started Mexican dancing when she was 4 so they have been dancing most of their lives and I can see how much they love it when they are on stage. Gigi has been away this year and she is performing. When I see the pictures I can see the joy in her. Both my girls love dancing and I am glad for that. I was thinking that when they are 80 I will get no less thrill from watching them dance. I love it!! They bring me joy when they are dancing!! And I hope they will be dancing when they are 80!!! One thing I have taught them...do what you love and never give it up....Passion!!!! That is one of the keys to a happy life...living your passions, and I see passion when they dance!!! *sigh* I am blessed to have 2 daughters who bring me so much joy!!!

I follow another blog and I love the way she makes list and if you know me I love lists!! I feel I am at my best when I have list to "guide" me...and who does not love highlighting when something is completed??? So I though I would make a few lists!! teeeehehehehe

5 things I love about my life right now...

1/ the puppies "ruling" the house. They have brought so much joy into the house (as well as some "stress"...but one look into their eyes and you forget the that).
2/ my work hours...they give me more time with the family and more time to do things (that is another story).
3/ God...He brings so much joy into my life and blesses me beyond what I deserve.
4/ Couple's Night...I enjoy planning these events with hunny bunny and Boo. It is such a fun and crazy time for all of us (I will not mention the stress but...)
5/ my outlook on my health and what I should be doing to change some things (more water, walking more...)

4 things I am wanting to accomplish this weekend...

1/ take the puppies baths (aaauuughhhh).
2/ cut puppies nails.....(triple auuuggghhhhh).
3/ see Boo dance at her recital.
4/ take the in-laws to dinner

3 things I love about being a MOM...

1/ That feeling I get whenever I think about them (happy and thankful and content...)
2/ Knowing I have raised 2 incredible, intelligent and loving individuals.
3/ The knowledge that my hunny bunny and I were allowed to come together and be a part of the creation on these wonderful people.

2 Things I hope to loose this week...

1/ my moody attitude (yes, i am in a mood and i am not sure why???)
2/ at least 2 pounds!!! (i am serious!!)

1 word that describes my life right now...

1/ Transition (i really do feel like i am in transition and i am not sure when it will be done...)

#127

Thursday, June 4, 2009

#127

And...here we go!

1. There is no place like home.

2. My favorite thing for dinner lately has been anything with meat.

3. Mr. Snuggles and Ripley are puppies who go... bark! bark! bark!

4. A nice long walk is what I hope to be doing next week during the mornings.

5. I could use some good news.

6. When all is said and done, it is what it is.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to getting out of this moody feeling, tomorrow my plans include Boo's recital and Sunday, I want to take the in-laws out to dinner to say thank you for fixing the car!

Sunday Blessings (a little late...)

* twilight....i love that time of the day.

* sunshine!!! when you can feel the warmth of it on your face...delicious!

* a slushy maker that does not slush!!! teeehehehehe...

* hearing my daughter laugh on the phone hundreds of miles away...

* Chinese food!!! yummy!!!

* teaching hunny bunny how to work facebook and seeing his excitement when he hooked up with an friend from high school.

* being able to lead Couple's Night (and doing silly skits with hunny bunny!!)

#126



And...here we go!

1. It's cold and slushy and good (hint: we were not able to make them at couple's night last night).

2. I love cottage cheese and tomatoes.

3. My favorite health and beauty product is chocolate (it makes me feel good so that has to count for something...right?).

4. Next month we are planning a road trip which will include a nice long ride.

5. Well, first of all I am still not convinced Obama looks like the President.

6. Jumpy people; those were the cast of characters in a recent dream and it was a very hectic and "fast" dream.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a long hot bath, tomorrow my plans include Chinese food and Monday, I want to get some laundry done.

REMEMBERING...

this weekend I have been remembering my loved ones. The special things about them. The things that made them unique and special in my life. I am truly blessed to have had them in my life and I believe they have impacted me and helped to make me the person I am today. I love them and today I am remembering them...
a special thank you to my Uncle Alex who fought for our country and was able to return to us after the Vietnam War. He taught me what courage and sacrifice was. He is alive and I remember his love of country and home. He is an incredible man!!!

Sunday Blessings...

* the rain...it makes things grow and washes away dirt...

* family get togethers....love my family

* feelings...they may not always be good but if I pay attention I can grow and learn...

* Memorial Day...a day to remember those who have fought for our country...

* My Aunt Mary, Uncle Pete, Aunt Bea and Grandma G..... they were a blessing to me while they were here....

* cell phones...i was able to speak with baby girl yesterday...*sigh* miss her....

* August....baby girl graduates and comes home!!!!

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And...here we go!

1. Moving to a huge home with a huge yard and a wrap around porch is something I dream about.

2. Only when you are in Jesus are you free.

3. My best quality is my ability to make others laugh, even when they are feeling low.

4. I am sooooo about the small and the huge details.

5. In nearly 10 years, I hope to be a grandmother (teeehehehehe...hint...hint).

6. A three week vacation to focus on me and mine is what I need right now!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to dinner and looking for a jersey for Mister, tomorrow my plans include work and 2 grad parties and Sunday, I want to rest!

Sunday's Blessings

* my husband...good days, bad days and those "want to do over days" he is mine and I am blessed!!!

* education...it is a privilege and blessing to live in a country where education is allowed and encouraged.

* His love!!

* the desire to praise HIM!!

* photo's ...they help us to remember moments in life

* family...they are the binding of who I am

* walking the dogs...it is a nice time to be outside enjoying the spring weather!!

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This week, I chose quotes having to do with spring...as always when I do this, feel free to fill-in whatever you'd like; it's more fun that way! Of course, if you know the quote, feel free to fill that in, too! The quotes will be on my blog, should anyone want to see what they are.

And...here we go!

1. If we had no winter i would never get to catch snowflakes on my tongue.

2. Life is a perpetual astonishment.

3. If I had my life to live over I would not frown so much when i was younger (I am sooo hating the frown lines right now!!).

4. I am trying to figure out what the following is attached to.... inside of four and twenty hours.

5. If you've never been thrilled by a quick 7 floor drop you don't know what you have been missing.

6. To be interested in the changing seasons is to enjoy life to the fullest.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to catching up on some DVR programs, tomorrow my plans include 2 graduation parties and a church event and Sunday, I want to relax but have another graduation party to attend.

We went to see Star Trek on Mother's Day! I loved it!!! It was a great movie and we all enjoyed it (Boo, hunny bunny and myself!). Boo was new to the whole Star Trek world but she really enjoyed it. It was action packed and the characters were all so believable! If you get a chance you need to see this movie!!! I recommend it!!!




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1. First thing you wash in the shower?
my arms

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
orange (go Bronco's!!)

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
over and over and over and over again!!!!

4. Do you plan outfits?
Always!!

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
bad...I did not have enough time to get ready for church so hunny bunny went alone (c #4)

6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red?
a layout I uploaded

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having.
it was weird...and fuzzy so not many details...

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Yes.

9. What are you craving right now?
something sweet!!!

10. Do you floss?
is my dentist going to read this???

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
the cute little dolls (I had 2 of them!!)

12. Are you emotional?
YES!!!!!

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
YEP!!

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
i am a licker!!!

15. Do you like your hair?
today it looked great!!!!

16. Do you like yourself?
Please...I RULE!!!! teeehehehehe!

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
I would!!!!

18. What are you listening to right now?
The Nuggets in game 4.

20. Would you go sky diving?
YES!!!

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
yes

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
yes

23. Do you rent movies often?
yes...VOD

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
do I count????

25. How many countries have you visited?
2

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
yes

27. Ever been on a train?
yes

28. Brown or white eggs?
white

29.Do you have a cell-phone?
NO!!!

30. Do you use chap stick?
no

31. Do you own a gun?
no

32. Can you use chop sticks
only if I want to feed the floor some rice!!!

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
hunny bunny, Boo, Mister Snuggles and Ripley

34. Are you too forgiving?
hmmmmmmmm....

35. Ever been in love?
YES!!!!

36. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
working

37. Ever have cream puffs?
yes

38. Last time you cried?
Sunday

39. What was the last question you asked?
Is that pee????

40. Favorite time of the year?
Autumn

41. Do you have any tattoos?
no

42. Are you sarcastic?
sometimes

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
no

44. Ever walked into a wall?
yes....teeehehehehe...

45. Favorite color?
black

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
sure did...

47. Is your hair curly?
yep

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Nickleback

49. Do looks matter?
hmmmmmmm....do i give the truthful answer or the politically correct one???

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
as long as it was not on me....

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
it was until we changed companies...

52. Do you like your life right now?
LOVE IT!!!!!

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
depends in how tired I am

54. Can you handle the truth?
YES!!!

55. Do you have good vision?
in the day time

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
hate is a strong word...no

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
all day

58. Last person you held hands with?
Boo

59. What are you wearing?
brown "comfortable" clothes

60.What is your favorite animal?
Lions

61. Where was your default picture taken at?
home

62. Can you hula hoop?
one time around

63. Do you have a job?
sure do

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
tampons (today as a matter of fact!)

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
sadly...yes

Happy Mothers Day!!!
Today was a fun day. We went to service at church and they put on a very special Mother's Day service. It was meaningful and sweet. I missed Genesis but I was able to speak with her last night so it helped a little. Hunny bunny took me to dinner and it was yummy (love Outback Steakhouse). I enjoyed spending the day with him and Boo. It was interesting to have my first Mothers Day without one of my babies here. It made me realize how blessed I an when they are both home. I love my girls. I really do. I am soooo blessed to have had two incredible and wonderful daughters. They are both unique in their own way and that makes them that more special. I love being a mom. I love loving them and seeing the young ladies they are today. I am so proud of them. They are respectful, nice, funny, loving girls and I am in awe that I am their mother. I thank the Lord everyday that He gave them to me. He blessed me when each of them was conceived. That He would look down and pick me to mother them is incredible (I sometimes think what was He thinking???? but them I remember He is God and He knew...) He knew they would bring me joy (and grey hairs!), He knew the would keep me grounded (and up late nights worrying if they would make it through high school), He knew they would make me laugh (and yes pee in my pants...that is another story for another time...), He knew I would wake up every morning and thank Him for giving them to us and end every night with a sigh of pleasure for the happiness they bring into my life...HE KNEW. I love my girls and I love being their mother and I am sooooo blessed to have them in my life.

This year the ladies group at our church had their Mother's Day Tea at a British Tea House. It was a fun time of fellowship and eating some new foods...


Boo and Nina Lucy
The ladies said the strawberry tea was great...

Yummy....
Boo and her Spotted Dick....

Our waitress was awesome and a native of Britian...

Enjoying eachother...

Fresh baked scones...yummy

Boo enjoying some time before tea...


Tea time...

more layouts!!

And...here we go!

1. Apples are to oranges as pugs are to snow (teeehehehehe).

2. I am a republican and that's all I have to say about that.

3. I think I hear the trees blowing in the wind tonight.

4. I love the red, white and blue flag.

5. Do what you want to do, but remember to own whatever you do.

6. I saw a young boy with holes in his jeans and behind him was a Radio Flyer wagon; in the wagon was a bucket filled with dirt and worms.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to resting after the Sports Banquet, tomorrow my plans include a Mother's Day tea and Sunday, I want to celebrate being a MOM!